I honestly compare most men's (and even women, esp ACC teachers), testing and judgement pictured in an analogy of a toddler trying to perform surgery.
My dad is one of these men. If my instincts are true; I am disgusted.
I laughed so hard at an episode of Reno911 several months ago when there was a manager who grabbed an employees ass to say: "Now, if anyone does that to you, it is sexual harassment. This is how you respond."
It is not the exact story, and it is such a ridiculous argument to judge if I like the lifestyle of an abused woman. It is more of a provoking where I am honestly walking away to give the toddler surgeon no ground to stand on, while he most likely thinks to himself: "Toddler logbook check: She did not respond to my perversion, I make up my own b.s. from here."
It is like hearing nails on a chalkboard to imagine the anal retentive obsessiveness over the judgement, bickering, and issue from there. Not only does he want me to put up a fight, he wants to be the one "to knight me into womanhood." After that, he wants to instruct ways of dealing with any kind of abuse.
Any man who would abuse a woman is ignorant, period. Unless it was an actual intelligent argument that didn't involve any sort of abuse, you could compare a woman handing her life to a toddler to perform "surgery."
Put her head in a wild animals mouth
Walk off a cliff
Jump off a boat in the middle of an ocean in between far continents
Ugh.
I am going to apply for a position as a correction officer in a local prison. I really wouldn't mind going through a normal routine, but I have a skeptical intuition that I may be going through more ridiculous testing.
So, I can be militant at times. The point is, it is my own choice and judgement when I want to be militant. I can imagine myself having regular conversation with some prisoners. I can imagine myself speaking or teaching logic, sense, or a simple peaceful conversation regardless of my title of "correction officer." My skepticism is that I am the one who is at the crack of the whip of an above boss to be told to dog and get in the face of other prisoners. It is the uncomfort after already living a stalked life to be misunderstood: The boss will be the one who decides when I'm being too much of a noodle or wimp and when I'm the one who is authoritative enough. I still want to go for the job for decent pay, and I mean decent pay at the most reasonable, but there is that skepticism there that I will have controlled behavior, which I am extremely uncomfortable with.
I see it as a blind passive competition in my intuition of a contest with how to treat people in various circumstances. I see it more dehumanizing (for Josh the stalker who thinks he owns the vocabulary, its nothing to read into. call it inhumane, whatever. don't feed your arrogance on a way I am that you agree with). to prisoners that still shouldn't deserve to be used as dogs as a passive blind contest. When it is not prisoner related, a personality is a personality. A personality is not something that should be competed with. It is who a person is. Plain and simple.
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If I could think of any lighter thoughts, I am actually looking forward going to the flea market tomorrow even though I've already had a little bad experience. I need the extra money and to get out of the house.
